I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you,
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothing new,
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turning blue,
And you say,
Sorry like an angel,
Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid...

Somehow, I can relate to that...

~j¹~

Mark these words, and mark them well.

I will be in her pants come New Years Eve, or after.

No, not some random hook-up...planning on dating her...doubt that'll work all too well.

Oh well. Who knows?


~j¹~

Star Wars or Star Trek?

Which was better?

While you're arguing amongst yourselves (or not), I'll be getting laid.

That is all.

~j¹~

I'm convinced that Amy Winehouse is a M-F transsexual...

>_>

~j¹~

I'm dragging so much ass right now...

I got maybe 2 hours of sleep last night...

Couldn't get comfortable, it was hot as hell...

I need to power nap...

I'll holla.

~j¹~

I went to a rather nice restaurant the other night...and sitting across the room from me, was a couple.

They were fighting.

It was a blowout, they were all screaming and shit, it eventually got to the point where the woman got up and walked out, but I couldn't help but notice that the man didn't follow her. So I did.

I walked outside, came up behind her, and spun her around a few times, and I think it confused her, because she then proceeded to say "Sometimes I don't even know you anymore!"

And that, in turn, confused me...

So I punched her in the face.

I'm not saying it was the right thing to do, but I was low on options, plus, my food was getting cold...

~j¹~

Mmmmm...

Chili...

*homer simpson drool*

~j¹~

Al Gore won a Nobel Peace Prize, essentially for telling us shit we already knew.

The earth is getting fucking hot.

Well, in light of that, allow me to share with you all, a revelation, of sorts that I had last night.

SHIT HAPPENS!

Now, where's my fucking nomination/NPP?

~j¹~

I need sex.

2 weeks is too long...*cries*

~j¹~

So yeah...I don't remember much of the shenanigans of a couple nights ago...but, judging how trashed the house was...it was pretty awesome.

Yeah...i need food...imma cut this off here.

~j¹~

holy friggin shit

i havent been this wasted in a lon time.

i feels sick...i think i need to thwro up...

this rules so fuckin hard

also...mason kicked my ass at guitar hero...he plays in a band...so of course he did...hes a guitarist...ill show you a picture if i can get one of him...

hes a sexy beeasst

yeah...

rofl

I can understand how scissors beats paper, and how a rock beats scissors, but there is no fucking way that paper can beat rock. Is paper supposed to magically wrap around the rock, leaving it immobile? Why the hell can't paper do this to scissors, and screw scissors for that matter, why can't paper do this to people? Why aren't sheets of college ruled notebook paper suffocating students while they take notes in class? I'll tell you why, cause paper can't beat anybody. A rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. When I play Rock-Paper-Scissors, I always choose rock, so that way, when someone claims to have beaten me with paper, I can punch them in the face with my already clinched fist and say: "Oh shit, I'm sorry, I thought your paper would protect you, you asshole."

Yeah...

Random, but it was bugging me, and I have a cold, so piss off. x_x

~j¹~

Where will you run when your kingdom falls?
Will you think of the world?
Where will you hide when your saviour laughs in your face,
At the joke you made of his name...

Here in this world,
How would you know what the angels look like,
Here are my wings,
Flightless and tired of the burden...
When things fall by the wayside,
I have my faith in reason...

What a man tells a man becomes institution,
In your book of dead words,
And it never ever fails how the idiots prevail,
Or at least outnumber us...

Here in this world,
How would you know what the angels look like?
Here are my wings,
Flightless and tired of the burden...
When things fall by the wayside,
You have no reason for faith...

Wise men still seek him now...
Wise men still seek him now...
But I'm still skeptic of the seers of visions
And the mocking of a fabulous...(fairy tale)

Here in this world,
How would you know what the angels look like?
Here are my wings,
Flightless and tired of the burden...
When things fall by the wayside,
You have fallen...

By the wayside (x3)

Overnight shifts suck sometimes...

Especially if you were conned into it. >_<

Oh well, I can't complain, I've got more hours this week than I've gotten in a damn long while.

After today, I'll have 34...which is good.

Now, to some of you, 34 hours worked in a week is no big deal, hell, some of you can do that standing on your head (and you possibly have...=P).

But look at it from my perspective, when I was first hired there, I was getting about 40 hours a week, then the hours started slipping...so yeah.

Anyhow, I gotta go.

I'll finish this up later.

- Josh

...And it's not from a spyware infested laptop, and one that the "h" key is broken, and the screen doesn't have to sit on anything else to keep it vertical, and where I don't have to worry about the power cord coming unplugged because I even slightly move the laptop...

Many frustrations abound...

So the psych sessions have been going very well, much progress is being made, and I gotta tell ya, I'm feeling pretty positive...well other than the whole still single thing...>_<

So yeah...

Things are pretty good...hopefully I'll be back online on a regular basis here soon.

Word.

=P

~j¹~

Hey all,

Im still alive, just having personal and familial problems.

Ill be back online soon.

I encourage you to call, my number's in my previous entry.

Dont ask about whats going on though, cause I probably won't tell you.

Only my psychiatrist needs to know.

Its nothing personal.

Anyway, im out.

Like I said, call me.

- Josh

My goddamn phone hasn't come in yet.

The damn thing was ordered last week...and in that time, it's went from the UPS delivery guy back to the UPS Store because they didn't know the exact house I lived in, from the UPS Store to the Post office, phone was supposed to be delivered today, but obviously it wasn't...and so, at the post office it still sits. And I swear to God...if it's not here tomorrow, I will be MORE than angry...

What's worse, is if it doesn't work right...oh heaven help them.

Yeah, anyhow, in lighter news...

The package that my buddy John sent me from Iraq came in, and in that package were 3 things: A letter, a CD, and a black briefcase.

Sounds kinda suspicious eh?

Well it shouldn't. The letter was just an update on how things are going. The CD had some photos and a few videos of things going "Boom". And the briefcase, as peculiar as it was...contained (what I eventually found out to be) an ATI Radeon X1950 XTX Uber Edition video card. (Geeks, start drooling now. ^_^)

What's even more than that, only 500 of those bastards were made, and I own one. Now, I need to just install it, which I don't know how to do.

Anyway, that's all I can about think of right now...I'm trying to get back into the habit of updating regularly again, I PROMISE!!!

Peace, love, and chicken grease.

~j¹~

Can hold my breath only for a little while,
Until reality starts sinking in,
Once again, I'm settling for second best,
Turn the page and skip to the end to where I,
Swore that I would try,
Since the last time I crossed that line,
In the back of my mind I know...

It only hurts when your eyes are open,
Lies get tossed and,
Truth is spoken,
It only hurts when that door gets opened,
Dreams are lost and,
Hearts are broken...

Miles away, promise from a burning bed,
2 worlds should never collide,
One word would end it if you ever heard,
Tear the page out that reminds me when I,
Swore that I'd be strong,
Now the next time has come and gone,
Well maybe I'm wrong, I know...

I know what you're feeling,
It's hard to believe in someone,
Someone who's not there,
I know that you're waiting,
Cause love is worth saving,
But only for so long, so long, so long...
(chorus)